MONSTA X’s Jooheon Posts Heartbreaking Letter Describing His Struggles

He is currently taking medication.

MONSTA X‘s Jooheon shared his struggles with fans.

On January 27, Jooheon posted a heartbreaking letter on MONSTA X’s fancafe, MX Talk Tok.

In the lengthy letter, he revealed that he is currently in a difficult situation but wishes to get better. He also reiterated how much he loves his fans, Monbebes.

Monbebes, this is Jooheon who loves Monbebes. I contemplated a lot if I should even write this…I am mentally very weak, and I’m going through a hard time.
I am currently taking medication, and I’ve been trying to find an opportunity to slowly appear again. I’m often in my room in the dark with my hands together, praying and crying. I want to go back but I am working hard to return with a better side of me⁠—to return with the name Jooheon that appears cooler to Monbebes. I wished Hyungwon hyung and our maknae Changkyun a happy birthday in person, so I hope you can look at me while not assuming things based on what you see on the surface…You missed me a lot, didn’t you?

He expressed his determination to return as a better person.

I’m working out and doing a few things that are healing to me. I will work hard so that the times I’ve spent thinking and worrying will not go to waste. I miss Monbebe a lot too. I’m sorry to have surprised Monbebe so early in the morning.
I’ll be the best Jooheon. Everyone is having a difficult time in this difficult world. This city is so chaotic. I’ll win against this chaotic world and come back soon. If everyone waits for me and finds me again, I’ll stand before you cooler with the name Jooheoney. I love you, Monbebes.

Jooheon ended by asking fans to pray for one another.

Let’s all pray for each other…We’re all struggling and hurting. I’m sorry for talking for so long. Once again, I love you!

This letter comes after Starship Entertainment‘s announcement that Jooheon will be taking a break due to health conditions.

Read the full letter below.

Monbebes, this is Jooheon who loves Monbebes. I contemplated a lot if I should even write this…I am mentally very weak, and I’m going through a hard time.
I am currently taking medication, and I’ve been trying to find an opportunity to slowly appear again. I’m often in my room in the dark with my hands together, praying and crying. I want to go back but I am working hard to return with a better side of me⁠—to return with the name Jooheon that appears cooler to Monbebes. I wished Hyungwon hyung and our maknae Changkyun a happy birthday in person, so I hope you can look at me while not assuming things based on what you see on the surface…You missed me a lot, didn’t you?

I’m working out and doing a few things that are healing to me. I will work hard so that the times I’ve spent thinking and worrying will not go to waste. I miss Monbebe a lot too. I’m sorry to have surprised Monbebe so early in the morning.
I’ll be the best Jooheon. Everyone is having a difficult time in this difficult world. This city is so chaotic. I’ll win against this chaotic world and come back soon. If everyone waits for me and finds me again, I’ll stand before you cooler with the name Jooheoney. I love you, Monbebes.

Let’s all pray for each other…We’re all struggling and hurting. I’m sorry for talking for so long. Once again, I love you!

– Jooheon

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